Last FULL Day-DAY 20!

Can you believe I see you tomorrow!!?? Thank goodness!! I am so excited to see you!! It really has been so fun to see my family, they make me laugh and I love them so much! Hopefully next time though you will be able to join me! :); I am already looking forward to it!

Favorite memory of the day has to be when you drove down one Sunday, while we were dating, and met me in the Provo Towne Center parking lot. I took you for a ride around town in the mustang-top down. Then we went to a little park, BEST Park ever, in Springville. We walked arm in arm down this little marshy path surrounded by bushes and weeds. I remember laughing with you as we talked about the lovely scenery :). I felt dumb taking you there and at the same time I thought it was completely funny. Then we laid a blanket on the grass and dodged frisbees flying by our head as these lame-O guys played their weekly, competitive frisbee toss game. I also remember some kids lost their dog and I tried helping them find him :). You kept shooing bugs away from your face, taking cover under the blanket; it was so funny! I thought you were such a prissy boy :). Then as the night went on we laughed our heads off as we spoke Southern to each other-first time- and now it's like our little tradition :). That moment I knew you had such a great sense of humor and that I was completely addicted to you! That night I remember we went both went home and texted each other throughout the night all these stupid southern things about John Deer tractors, nappy gnats in your hair, etc. I was laughing all night that night.

You are the best! You know that??? I completely adore and love you a million!

DAY 18

Saturday is upon us! Only a few more days! I can't wait to see you!!!!!!!!

I think we both share this one as our favorite(s)---all of the silly moments we have shared which still cause me to reflect on them with big smiles and laughter! From our "floor moment," to our "staircase moment," to all of the silly car moments and all of the crazy videos we've done-jazercise, PIRT...all of those moments spent with you HAVE to be some of my most favorite moments. I LOVE LOVE LOVE being with you so much. I love laughing with you; it seriously is one of the things I cherish the most about our relationship. Thank you for making me laugh; you are gifted at getting me out of any mood. I seriously can't imagine living without the sound of your laugh! I love it, it brings so much joy into my life! The most amazing gift you could have ever given me was laughter, and I know you will keep me laughing the rest of my life.

I adoringly love you!

DAY 17

It feels so good to be in love with you!!! Only a few more days, YAY YAY YAY!! I love every day when I get to put my wedding ring on and know that I am yours!! I'm married to the best woman in the world....I say that to myself as I slide my ring on. It's the best feeling to be loved by you, to be married to you, to know that we get to spend the rest of our lives together!

One of my FAVORITE memories was my Birthday!! WOW!! It was such an amazing day!! It was an ALL day event! You made me an amazing breakfast; french toast with coconut syrup, that yummy egg dish and potatoes...and a pina colada smoothie!! YUM! Then you made me sit on the couch and close my eyes as you brought in my present. "Ok you can open em!" A sweet black guitar!! I was so excited!! I had been wanting to get one for so long!! It was awesome! Then you surprised me by taking me to a spa for a pedicure and facial! I followed you in my car and was wondering where we were going and then we pulled into the spa parking lot and I just smiled! I felt a little weird getting a facial....but it felt really good! Then we sat next to each other and got pedicures and you got glitter toes! :) SO FUN! The day goes on!! We went and took a nap at my house and then we went into gateway and saw a movie...(i think we did anyway) I'm kind of confused now... did we see a movie or not..? I think we did and then we went and walked around temple square and saw the lights and acted totally silly together....singing and laughing!!! After that we went to the JSM building and had dinner on the top floor! It was so beautiful....looking out the huge glass windows and seeing the Temple right there! The food was amazing! We tried everything they had! Plate after plate....all the desserts, like 20 different cakes, eclairs, etc.... WOW!! i was sooooo STUFFED!! I felt sick! oooww...oooowwww...oowww!!!! We laughed so hard together as we pretended like we were going to stuff desserts in your purse and take them home! haha! :) It was so funny!! It was such an amazing day!! It seriously was the best birthday I'd had in YEARS!!! Thank you so much baby!!

Day 17

One of my favorite memories has to do with us and our videos--staying up all night right before our wedding and getting our video put together. I remember how stressed we were to get it done and yet everything totally came together perfectly! We were such a good team and we had so much fun using our creativity to produce something we both would enjoy for the rest of our lives.

Another time is when you helped me with my American Lit project-first staying up to help me get my handout prepared-driving to Kinko's before they closed to see if we could get a mock up--and then indulging me in my last minute idea to put together a video on Maya Angelou. You were so incredible at helping me and totally being there for me hours on end until we perfected it. AND then for you to come and support me as I actually presented it to my teacher and the class-it totally melted my heart to have you there supporting me. I am so grateful for all you do to show me that you love me, that I am most important to you, and for picking up on the things that mean a lot to me and always following through. I love you so much!

Day 15

One memory I love is Halloween last year. I loved spending our first official holiday together-making hot cider, twisted breadsticks, yummy squash, chili, pumpkin seeds, carmel apples, and other goodies. I loved carving pumpkins at my place-laying newspaper on the floor and digging out all the yucky squishy orange stuff, and then carving a cat in mine and a skeleton in yours; putting them on the stairs leading down to my house, watching them lit up.

I remember asking you to try and find the movie "ickabod crane" and you searched and searched for it at different stores asking for the totally wrong movie-"ichy bod" :) haha. I loved laying with you on the couch watching Mr. Toad and hearing you laugh at how ridiculously silly and childish it was. I think at that moment I realized that you would be a great dad; that you could play off stuff like that and be totally cool with it (indulging me in my childhood traditions :). I loved spending the fall with you in Utah. I have so many wonderful memories of my little place in Springville with you. Crazy we almost moved in there together! :) That is so odd to imagine; I wonder how it would have been. That place will always be so special to me.

DAY 13

I woke up this morning and guess who I missed? YOU YOU YOU :). I love you soooooooooooo much! I know what you mean, I feel like I just keep repeating myself with every posting. So you know what we should do? Share a favorite memory :).

I miss when we returned from NYC to your house and I had to leave that night back to Springville. You were so freakin cute when you came outside and jumped inside the window of the passenger seat, telling me "okay let's go!" HAHA. And then as I drove down the drive way out onto the road, running and jumping on the hood of my car telling me "you can't leave, you can't leave!!" We were so crazy yelling at each other late that night in the streets-your neighbors probably thought we were freaks! I will never for get that moment. I felt so much love for you! I knew that you were my home and my place belonged with you "always and forever" (Singing that last part like Kip :). Our whole NY trip was amazing! All the great food, the boat cruise around manhattan, the things we saw together-experiencing a place I love together- riding the subway, meeting different people, walking the streets late at night, strolling through central park, eating hot dogs on the stree...such a fun trip. Thanks for taking me on the best date of my life!! Thanks for always loving me, cherishing our relationship and adoring me always!

I love you so much!

Day 11

Life's a little less fulfilling and entertaining without you in it. I was able to go to a really great lunch yesterday with my parents at this new lodge on the rogue river. It was so beautiful and the food was amazing. Every second I wished you were there so see what I was seeing and to enjoy the day with me. Tonight I am going with my family to see the fire works and the annual Boat Nic show (no not the same as THE BOAT SHOW :). I am excited to actually do something now that I have been here two weeks (besides hanging out with Maile and going to Jaxons game which was super fun), although I am going to be missing you all night. It is funny, you look forward to a vacation, to traveling and doing stuff but if you are not with someone you love or have fun with it really isn't as great of a time. Do I sound like the whiny baby now? Maybe BUT who the freakin dippity do cares???? NOONE and if they do poop on them :).

I still love you, even through the hard days :).

DAY 9

We are almost in the two digits :). Thanks for being the most amazing person in the world and sending me flowers!!! I can smell them when I go to sleep and wake up, they are right by my bed! You excel at keeping the love and romance alive in our marriage. The little things truly make life so much better. Thanks for the pictures, the chats, the phone calls, texts...for everything. I am so grateful to have found the person that makes me feel alive everyday, that makes me want to be a better woman.......You seriously bring so much happiness into my life. I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU!

Day 7-ONE WEEK!!

You know what I can't wait for??? When we are able to post something TOGETHER-make the world laugh again :). I love our silliness. I love being able to totally be myself with you. I am so glad that you are able to not only accept my silliness but to also add to it 10 fold :). I LOVE all the moments we have together. I can't wait to talk to you tonight-favorite time of the day! :) I can't wait to share with you all the things I learned from my dad the other day--yes babe, DINOSAURS roamed the earth :). I love love love all of our late night conversations, speculating about so many things.

ON WEEK 2!!!! :) I love love love you!

Oh P.S. I love the song of the day "Love it all," by the Kooks. What a fun song :).

Oh and here are some pictures showing the moment I was describing the other day-going to Maile's dance lesson and me being "story mom" for all the kids before class :).

DAY 5

It's the same ol' thing-loving and missing you. It will probably be like this for 21 days :), but nevertheless I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU!

I had the craziest dream last night that we joined the army and during our training we had to practice getting all of the local villagers out of the area. We went from door to door convincing people they had to evacuate immediately or their lives would be in danger. HAHA. Where do these strange dreams come from??? I think it is interesting that in most of my dreams you are always with me doing some strange thing or another :)..... I miss you even asleep.

Day 3-We're in the TEEN's :)

Thanks for the song this morning...Do you feel like screaming sometimes as he does? :) I love you babes. Thanks for making everything go calm and peaceful inside whenever I hear your voice. I love your voice!!! There is no better sound in the world! What can I say other than I love you like crazy!!

"Hey did you know California was like 119 degrees once?" That's what Jaxon asked me the other day :( haha.

"Why did the chicken cross the road?" "I don't know, why?" "So he could stand in the middle of the road." That was from Maile.

Oh and p.s. Yes we can make a promise to NEVER do this EVER again :)

Day 1

To my "babes:" It's been less than 24 hours and I miss you like crazy. "How can I possibly do three weeks away from my best friend?" I thought as the plane was taxing the tarmac, my heart pounding, anxiety rushing through me....I never want to be away from you this long ever again....

I guess this will be a new, defining chapter in our already amazing love story...(can't wait to rip the chapter up and move on TOGETHER in the following chapters-hey maybe we should hold a bon fire and sing kumbia when I return :) haha).

Last minute picture: I will be holding onto the image of last night-- lying in bed next to you, laughing, talking, singing to each other, being silly...You always make me laugh, even in the worst of times. The rendition we found on the computer of "forever young," the one you added to the playlist on our blog "three weeks," (which totally melted my heart when listening to it...yes EVEN the Maile Cyrus song :) haha...every time I hear it I will think of you and me being total goofs-it is our song, just like "You don't know me" reminds me of our wedding)....ANYWAY-I will always remember our "last night," listening to 20 different renditions of that song and you telling me "I always want to stay young and fun with you forever." YOU ARE ADORABLE! I miss your adorable face and all of the adorable things that make Mike MIKE :) I miss the way you talk, I miss the way you look at me when I am talking about things that are so dumb and make no sense at all, I miss holding and kissing your hands....

FYI I am going to run and jump in your arms at the end of these three weeks, and you better twirl me around like you always do :)

Thinking of you always, loving you forever...Babes, your my bestest friend in the WORLD!

Love Letters

SO MUCH LOVE
Date: Mon, 13 Oct 2008 07:07:34 -0700

This is revision #2 because #1 got lost in cyberspace somewhere and it makes me mad cause it was good! :)

Thank you for sharing the deeper part of your thoughts with me...baby, I just love you.....it BLOWS ME AWAY how similar we are, how many common loves we share...seriously if there ever was a list of things I wanted in a guy, you fulfill it--even down to the simplest things like the fact that you love avocado and Regina Spektor.

I think you SHOULD keep a journal :) that way our kids won't just have my side of the story ;) and besides you are 10x better at remembering the details, especially when it comes to things we've said.....

How I got so blessed to have you in my life is beyond my comprehension, but I pray everyday that I will be able to deserve that love you so generously offer me. I pray that I will be able to offer you that same amount of love everyday of my life spent with you (you know the deep kind that elevates you even when the person isn't present)....You have, from moment one, done the best job at loving me....You have pursued me, wooed me (k...that is seriously my least favorite word right now....honestly, say it out loud "to woe"--EWE...I'm not erasing it though)--FYI that was my favorite part in the first draft---BACK TO THE LIST....you have called on me, written me wonderful things that I will cherish forever,taken me out, been patient with me, respected me, taken so many first steps at moving our relationship forward...You have done it all "right," and that is exactly why it is "right." You seriously fell out of sky and I am so happy you found me years later :)...... I want to grow with you, live out my life laughing with you....

I miss you!
I love you!
p.s. Dress warm tonight! :)

Love Letters

Dear Amanda,

I am sitting right next to you...right now. You are on the phone with your dad....I am writing you an e mail. First of all, I love you. Second of all, I love you. And third......I love you. Anyhow that is all I wanted to communicate to you at this moment. I am SO excited to go to NY. I am wearing my I LOVE NY shirt right now. You don't even know it, BUT I am. I seriously can't wait. It's only a few days away. A FEW DAYS! Can you believe it!? It's finally here....in Kansas City it was so far away and NOW it isn't...it's right here....as in right around the corner.

I love kissing you. I love being in your face. You look abslutely beautiful every time I see you. I loved your outfit you had on for church. You looked stunning. And you look STUNNING right now! You are so BEAUTIFUL and I am soooo lucky. Because not only are you beautiful you are smart, funny, you can cook ( really well, dinner was great!), you make me laugh, you have STYLE and GRACE, you are sexy, sensitive, and seriously AMAZING! Baby I love to listen to you laugh! I love to listen to you talk. I LOVE YOU!

A-M-A-N-D-A

A- a is for Artist--in all ways your work and actions show creativity, sensitivity and imagination!
M- m is for My fav!---because everyone wants you in there MY FAV FIVE. t-mobile is the best!...and you're my fav
A- a is for Achievement--duh, you are a high achiever! showing extraordinary ability to achieve ANYTHING!
N- n is for Navigation--for navigating yourself to many various destinations and now back to the perfect place-UT!
D- d is for Divine--this is obvious, you are Supremely good, beautiful and magnificent. Also extremely delightful!
A- FLIP....another A! okay i got this one--A is for Ailurophilia- you have a love for cats! Cat woman!

Love Letters

I am watching you try on dresses right now. You really do look GREAT! It gives me chills to watch you. You look beautiful. I hope we can find something you like. I really like the second dress you tried on.

Baby, I love you so much. I feel extremely blessed to have you in my life. You make me so happy.I love spending time with you and I will be here to help you as much as I can with the whole wedding process.

Ok we are leaving now. Love you!

Love Letters

Baby,

The love I have for you has grown immensely the past couple of weeks, and continues to transcend any feeling of love I have ever experienced. I have had somewhat of a struggle accepting and believing your love. I realized that I have had a learned notion from a relationship in high school, that I won't be loved to the same extent that I love. That relationship was so long ago and yet I have still held onto that insecurity. But in the past two weeks I have truly been able to accept and believe your love.

It is a wonderful feeling and I will be forever grateful to you and to my Father in Heaven for bringing us together. I can really see and feel your love. It brings me such JOY and peace to know that I am loved! Your love fills me with desire to learn, grow and become better. The thought of starting and raising a family with you brings the most tender feelings into my heart.

I envision us together, bringing children into the world, raising them and teaching them correct and true values, beliefs, and principles. I envision us passing on the love we have for one another to our children. I envision our children being able to see and learn how to treat people through the way we treat each other. I envision us being able to teach our children from our own unique experiences and having that be an advantage and blessing for them. I know deep within that you will be a wonderful mother.

I see the most absolute and precious gifts and qualities in you. The dedication and energy you put into everything you do will also be put into being a mother. I know raising a family won't be easy. But I do know that together we will be able to raise a beautiful family. Our home will be filled with creative and fun holidays and traditions. It will be filled with music. It will be filled with the gospel and it's teachings. It will be filled with good food. It will be filled with love. I so look forward to experiencing that part of life with you. It will be amazing.

Baby, you are my best friend. There hasn't been a day that has gone by since we began communicating that I haven't thought about you. More recently there isn't a minute that goes by where I don't think of you. I miss you so much. I long for the day when we can be together each day, When we can come home to "our house", and find each other there. I truly need you and the support, comfort, and love you offer me. I can't express the gratitude that occupies my very being. I am and will be eternally grateful to have you in my life. I will be forever grateful for the love you have for me and show to me. You make me soooo happy! Thank you. I love you with all my heart. I am committed to keeping our relationship special. I am committed to appreciating you and treating you like a princess.

In my eyes you are truly my princess, my baby. You deserve the world and beyond and I will do all I can to always love you fully and give you everything and anything you need. I pray every day for you. I also pray every day that I can appreciate and love you to the fullest. I pray that I will always REMEMBER to be thoughtful and sensitive to your needs, wants and desires.

You have my heart and will forever. I absolutely LOVE you. And once again...THANK YOU!

Love